Sensing (for sensers)
I saw a post from Rohaa in the senser group that said:
I notice there are big differences between Sensers in what turns them on about sensing. Why do you want to be a Senser? What part of sensing especially makes you go YEAH!
Based on first-hand work with a lot of sensers, it appears that some things are consistent:
- they have similar early childhood experiences
what turns them on (yay!) about sensing is consistent across sensers
what scares them (eep!) about sensing is consistent across sensers
what shuts them down re sensing is consistent across sensers
only the domain of sensing varies (the variance affects the outward things, so they think they are all different)
Sensitive people go thru the same process in childhood whether they end up playing sensers, sources or shapers.
timid: They are more timid, cautious babies and young children who often seem to know what's going on around them, but are too young to understand it. Being more sensitive they are easily startled and don't often feel safe.
quiet and well-behaved: As they get older, they learn to be quiet and well-behaved. Why? They sense something that others don't and respond to it. They seem to see right thru people or know what's going to happen. Mundane parents and caregivers get scared or tense. The child senses the tense but doesn't get why it happens. Children, generally, learn to respond to the world by experiencing and interacting. When the reactions are consistent, they build a stable world view. With sensy little ones, they never get that experience of stability. They never ken what's ok and what's not. So they get quiet. Over the years they learn to speak and act very cautiously, waiting to sense what the other person wants. (Note: sensitive children who truly feel safe are the opposite. They are little terrors. Acting out in their lives all the crazy they are picking up. Those that don't feel safe just inhale and bury all that pain.)
likeable: With those they trust they are generally likeable, being able to give a person just what that person wants. They are almost never popular, tho. What lets them tune to one person and give them exactly what they want makes it impossible to be with several people at once.
lack of trust: People lie all the time. Nearly constantly. They lie to themselves, to one another, about their feelings, their thoughts, their dreams, their fears... If you are not a senser you might think this is pessimism. It's not. Any decent senser, even a child, can feel all the things that don't scan... When those that are supposed to love them the most lie to them constantly without any concern, they begin to doubt everyone. They develop trouble trusting.
overwhelmed: Small children have smaller lungs. They take small breaths. They have smaller stomachs. They take in small meals... But with emotions and energies, they don't get the option of taking in a small amount. When someone's angry, they feel the whole angry--and it's way too big to handle. Young sensers quickly get overwhelmed by life. With no one to explain it to them, they turn inward and become quiet and withdrawn. In some cases they will turn to small violence to let some of it out: vandalism, self-cutting, ...
burned: Their senses grow as they grow and the overwhelm continues. In time they simply don't get a chance to heal before the next overwhelm comes. They get burned out. Their senses start to get damaged and shut down. They can show all the signs of burn-out that an adult sufferer will show. Apathy, hopelessness, despair, even loss of will to live can happen. It tends to peak around age 9 in many cases, tho it continues thru-out life.
limin: A limin is a threshold of perception. A sound which is below the limin or hearing you won't hear. One above you will. Random noise at a party may be below your limin. If someone says your name across the room, however, that will be above. Things below your limin are called sub-liminal. One way young sensers protect themselves is by raising their limin. They sense a thing. They get hurt, either by the thing itself or by people's response to their knowing it. They shut down a little, withdraw, isolate... and not just from people. They isolate from their bodies and from their senses. In so doing, they raise the limin of their perceptions.
ow!: When the limin is high enough most of what they sense doesn't get thru. This usually happens by age 4. What does get thru? Only those things big enough to get over their wall. And what are the biggest emotions or energies in life? The painful ones. The ugly and brutal ones. The result is that all they sense, by the time they are conscious of sensing, is painful. So they isolate more. They do their best to raise their limins into a defensive fortress so that they don't have to feel anything. They never realize all the wonderful and amazing things they could be sensing because this wall is built too high and too early in life.
color v b&w: Their is yay! in sensing however. So much that a non-senser will never believe it. When you begin to truly sense the richness and depth of life, it's a bit like sitting in a surround-sound 3-D IMAX theatre taking it all in... Most people are looking at life on a tiny, grainy, B&W tv with sound so weak and tinny they can barely hear it.
people: Sensers hear/feel/see what people are really saying, who they are, what's inside. They can sense a person's dreams and hopes and passions even when that person cannot. So a simple "hello" from someone conveys a whole array of information. Every conversation has substance and power. Every interaction is deep an meaningful. You can't *not* love the people around you when you begin to sense their back-stories, their hopes, their deep desire to live and experience. Everyone is beautiful.
wow!: Color's are brighter, foods richer, experiences stronger and more amazing. The smell of a flower, sun on your face, amazing sex, a great meal, the sound of the ocean, dancing, ... A senser's life is so much more that you have to experience it to believe it. (Author's note: I have trouble believing anyone would choose another path.)
truth: A good senser can always tell what's true. They are very hard to lie to. They sense the right choice in everything. They move in real harmony with their lives as they sense what's really there.
interaction: A good senser can sense exactly what to say, how to say it to, and when to say it... Imagine never again wondering how to act. They are prepared, always and for every situation.
Getting to "good senser" is not easy however. You have powerfull ingrained habits of withdrawal and raising your limin. It's a deeply-coded habit to pull away from dark or painful things. The result is that you near-instinctively pull back from any rich or complex experience. You shut down. And in that shutdown, your senses suffer, just as they did when you were a small child. Your walls grow. Your armor thickens.
That shutdown happens before conscious thought or decision. So growing into a good senser involves learning to recognize shutdown and withdrawal and intentionally re-immersing yourself. Working at this process actively, with a really good teacher, will take you about two years to get past most of your childhood coding. You will never get it all, but the difference between a mundane life and an astoundly-rich senser life makes it well worth playing the game.
(Author's note: A young senser raised by an aware adult will miss most of these troubles and be much better at sensing, tho still not quite all they could be. They are still being raised by those who had to overcome their own pain. The third generation however, the healthy young sensers raised by those who were given a healthy childhood of sensing... These will be amazing people.)
variance across domain!
The things above, based on a large database of information, are consistent across all sensers. There is some difference among sensers, however, and that difference is generally based in domain.
domain: Different people favor different gifts. A 2nd chakra senser will focus on sensing and responding to emotions. They'll be less visually aware. A 6th chakra senser will be all about seeing, colors, images, etc. A 5th chakra senser will hear voices & sounds and be extremely "logic" or idea focused. A hands senser will want to touch, feel or hug everything. A 4th chakra senser will be less logical and more inclined to fall in love with everyone they meet. The feeling senser may look at a musician and feel the emotion the musician feels when playing well. The vision-based senser may see sheet music or an instrument. The hearing senser will hear the music being played or hear the person talking about music. A hands senser will feel the texture and flow of the music with their hands. (note: There are several other types of senser.)
CoT: If your review the Circle of Truths, you'll notice a different way that sensers vary. Some sensers lean toward life-experience: people, food, sex, trees, animals, nature... The opposite extreme is idea-focused sensers. These folks prefer to keep life at a little more distance, study and analyze it, and seek patterns and ideas about it. Pure sensers fall in-between these two. Where a senser lives on this scale will affect their attitudes toward sensing.
These two big differences, domain and CoT-focus, will affect the way a senser communicates, what they perceive, how they understand and several other surface things. The result is a seemingly very different person. A good senser, however, doesn't pay attention to such surface gloss. They study "the substance under the thing." From this perspective, sensers are all surprisingly similar.