Gender: Male Age: 47 Country: United States About Me: I love music, laughing, fun, creating, art, sunshine, butterflies, giraffes; I like rain and dancing and maybe rain dancing, and french toast, and colors, and sparkly things.
Note: It can be scary to step forward into the unknown, because what awaits you there is uncertain. The things I'm certain of in this life are that it ends, I'm in it, and I can do, and there are some things I'd like to do. It doesn't always feel safe. It doesn't always feel nice, but those are feelings. I tend to think a lot. I think about the future more than is necessary and I doubt myself/it.
3 years ago
Some of that is changeable. Perhaps, one day I'll look back at this and realize how far I've come. One thing at a time.
Sometimes it seems that life is unforgiving and so we must be the ones that forgive. Still, I find it difficult to forgive myself. At times I just want to say, "This is my story. I'm going to make it work, or I'm going to end it." I have to try though, or I'll never know. That's just how that works.
Actually...I've been the one being difficult I think. I've been so afraid and constantly considerate of negative outcomes and thinking the worst of things that I've actually ended up being less helpful to myself than I've needed to. I've kinda been making it MORE difficult because I've figured it wouldn't work out the way I want anyway. I know it's silly. Just, doesn't tend to seem that way when I'm really caught up in it. Not exactly what basics teach, ya?
"Life is a gift in all of it's forms. Imagine, if you will, that we came from nothingness, and from nothingness we now experience. All experience is the gift of life. Joy, pain, laughing, and playing, all is sacred, all is love."