Note: It can be scary to step forward into the unknown, because what awaits you there is uncertain. The things I'm certain of in this life are that it ends, I'm in it, and I can do, and there are some things I'd like to do. It doesn't always feel safe. It doesn't always feel nice, but those are feelings. I tend to think a lot. I think about the future more than is necessary and I doubt myself/it.
I was diagnosed with PCOS a year ago and as a result of my hormones acting up, I've gained a lot of weight and overall don't have the best self-confidence at this point in my life. I feel like I've lost touch of my femininity and independence. I feel that I don't laugh as much anymore and the sense of "everything is gonna work out, I'm a good person" has long since disappeared. I'm very tired.
Yesterday I decided to get up early today and go jogging. I even set my alarm for 6.30am, but was still thinking I'm kinda nuts for doing it, because it's Winter, and living in a mountain area makes it at least feel colder. But then the alarm went off this morning, and after 5 minutes I said to myself "I said I would do it, so I'll do it". I got up, got dressed, and went outside for 15 minutes! :D